A little struggle

I see the rain come down while the sun is shining! Little cold drops of rain fall involuntarily, from nowhere. The whether is warm..and it makes me feel good. Still..the little cold drops of rain are turning my life upside down. I sense a struggle inside me. What to do? Continue to enjoy the sun, the sea..the wonderful feeling! I sense the smell of fear, desire, love, sadness, happiness...all in one! Strange....